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<channel><title><![CDATA[CHARLES PEARSON - CHARLES JOURNAL]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal]]></link><description><![CDATA[CHARLES JOURNAL]]></description><pubDate>Tue, 03 Mar 2026 10:21:09 -0500</pubDate><generator>Weebly</generator><item><title><![CDATA["Reflections on Culture, Faith, and the Cities That Raised Me"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/reflections-on-culture-faith-and-the-cities-that-raised-me]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/reflections-on-culture-faith-and-the-cities-that-raised-me#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Mon, 02 Mar 2026 15:07:27 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/reflections-on-culture-faith-and-the-cities-that-raised-me</guid><description><![CDATA[    A great place to people-watch and sip cocktails in North Beach is Vesuvio Cafe's balcony/second floor.  This renowned San Francisco cafe/saloon was first established in 1948 and is located across Kerouac Alley from the infamous City Lights Bookstore on Columbus Avenue near Broadway.   The Weight of RitualReligion has always struck me as one of the most complicated things humans try to organize their lives around. No matter the tradition&mdash;Ash Wednesday, Ramadan, Judaism, Buddhism, Hindui [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/7480309-orig_orig.jpg' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/7480309-orig_orig.jpg" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">A great place to people-watch and sip cocktails in North Beach is Vesuvio Cafe's balcony/second floor.  This renowned San Francisco cafe/saloon was first established in 1948 and is located across Kerouac Alley from the infamous City Lights Bookstore on Columbus Avenue near Broadway.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font size="5"><strong>The Weight of Ritual</strong><br />Religion has always struck me as one of the most complicated things humans try to organize their lives around. No matter the tradition&mdash;Ash Wednesday, Ramadan, Judaism, Buddhism, Hinduism&mdash;each comes with practices that can feel overwhelming or impossible to fully understand. And yet, year after year, people return to these rituals with a kind of stubborn devotion. Maybe that&rsquo;s the point: not mastery, but continuity. The same way a city shapes you long before you understand its rituals.<br /><br /><strong>Cutting the Cord on Peacock</strong><br />With the Super Bowl behind us&mdash;well, Bad Bunny&rsquo;s halftime show, since that was the only part I cared about&mdash;I finally canceled my Peacock subscription. I wasn&rsquo;t watching much anyway. Even <em>Days of Our Lives</em>, which has been running since November 1965, lost its pull for me once it moved off broadcast TV and behind a paywall. A Roku subscription isn&rsquo;t expensive, but why pay for something I only check in on once or twice a year? So, goodbye Peacock.<br /><br /><strong>Hints of Spring</strong><br />March has arrived, and the air already smells different. Spring announces itself quietly&mdash;long before the temperatures catch up. The mornings are still February-cold, but something in the atmosphere has shifted. Peekskill, that quiet, watchful character in my life, is stretching its limbs again.<br /><br /><strong>A Dive into San Francisco&rsquo;s Past</strong><br />I recently watched a documentary about Carol Doda on Prime, and it was captivating from start to finish. Doda became famous as the first topless performer at the Condor nightclub in San Francisco, but the film revealed so much more about the city&rsquo;s history&mdash;especially the parts that rarely make it into the nostalgia reels.<br /><br />San Francisco, in those days, was a character with neon breath and restless hips. A city that seduced you, shocked you, and dared you to keep up. But even in its counterculture glow, being Black meant being excluded from certain clubs and performances unless you were white. Carol Doda and Judy Mamso helped define the era&rsquo;s nightclub scene, with Mamso pushing boundaries through interracial performances and even incorporating animals into her act. But Black women weren&rsquo;t allowed to participate in topless performances until the 1980s&mdash;by which time the glamour had faded and the clubs had drifted from North Beach into the Tenderloin.<br /><br /><strong>Movements, Music, and the Dance Floor</strong><br />The documentary also touched on the women&rsquo;s movement, the civil rights movement, and the dances that shaped the era&mdash;the twist, the swim. Bobby Freeman, a Black San Francisco singer, created the &ldquo;Swim&rdquo; dance at a Twist Party concert at the Cow Palace in 1962, later immortalizing it in his 1964 hit <em>C&rsquo;mon and Swim</em>. These were the cultural currents that made the city feel alive.<br /><br /><strong>A City That No Longer Exists</strong><br />There was a time when San Francisco felt like a world unto itself. Department stores had topless sales assistants. Shoe-shine girls worked topless, their movements becoming part of the city&rsquo;s strange choreography. Men stood on Broadway calling out to lure tourists into nude clubs. And then there were the darker stories&mdash;the club owner found murdered on Carol Doda&rsquo;s piano, a girl surviving the attack. These were the stories that greeted me when I first arrived in the city as a young man. San Francisco was a wild, unpredictable character then&mdash;one who didn&rsquo;t care whether you were ready for the story or not.<br /><br /><strong>What We Outgrow</strong><br />Now that I&rsquo;m no longer new anywhere&mdash;no longer the wide&#8209;eyed kid stepping into San Francisco for the first time, nor the newcomer wandering Peekskill&rsquo;s hills four years ago&mdash;I finished watching <em>The Night Manager</em>, recommended by my Ecuadorian friend Leo. Tom Hiddleston was magnetic as Jonathan Pine, Hugh Laurie deliciously sinister as Richard &ldquo;Dickie&rdquo; Onslow Roper&mdash;but it was Diego Calva as Teddy Dos Santos, the Colombian arms dealer and secret son, who stole my heart. The story ends in tragedy, and I felt oddly cheated by the lack of redemption. I doubt I&rsquo;ll watch a third season. Life is too short for shows that leave you empty.<br /><br />Still, I&rsquo;m looking forward to discussing it with Leo. And honestly? I&rsquo;d rather have Carol Doda and Judy Mamso on the screen&mdash;women who knew how to command a room, rewrite a culture, and leave a mark that still echoes through a city that barely resembles the one they helped shape.<br /><br /><strong>Two Cities, Two Selves</strong><br />San Francisco was the city that raised my younger self&mdash;reckless, curious, open to everything. Peekskill is the city that holds my present self&mdash;seasoned, rooted, discerning. One taught me how to enter a world; the other taught me how to stay in one. And somewhere between the two, I&rsquo;ve learned to recognize when it&rsquo;s time to let things go, whether it&rsquo;s a streaming service, a storyline with no redemption, or a version of myself that belonged to another city entirely.</font></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["Winter’s Lingering Embrace and The Edge of Night"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/winters-lingering-embrace-and-the-edge-of-night]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/winters-lingering-embrace-and-the-edge-of-night#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Sun, 01 Mar 2026 14:37:46 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/winters-lingering-embrace-and-the-edge-of-night</guid><description><![CDATA[    March arrives with snow again—not the fury of last week’s blizzard, but a quieter descent, as if winter is whispering now instead of howling.   Fleeting Snow on an Overcast DaySnow flurries drift across the window in slow, deliberate spirals, moving beneath a sky sealed in gray. Each flake seems to follow its own temperament&mdash;some rising and falling as if undecided, others rushing north with the wind, and a few hovering almost motionless before settling on the windowpane or the terr [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/snowmarch12026peekskill_orig.png' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/snowmarch12026peekskill_orig.png" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">March arrives with snow again&mdash;not the fury of last week&rsquo;s blizzard, but a quieter descent, as if winter is whispering now instead of howling.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><strong><em>Fleeting Snow on an Overcast Day</em></strong><br />Snow flurries drift across the window in slow, deliberate spirals, moving beneath a sky sealed in gray. Each flake seems to follow its own temperament&mdash;some rising and falling as if undecided, others rushing north with the wind, and a few hovering almost motionless before settling on the windowpane or the terrace concrete. Their quiet choreography feels both aimless and intentional, a final gesture from a season reluctant to leave.<br /><br /><br /><strong><em>A Town Accustomed to Winter</em></strong><br />Yesterday&rsquo;s sun melted much of the snow that had gathered over the past week, yet a stubborn layer still blankets the ground. By early March, Peekskill no longer questions whether new snow will stay or vanish by afternoon. The town has learned winter&rsquo;s habits&mdash;its persistence, its small surprises, its refusal to depart on schedule.<br /><br /><br /><strong><em>The Hint of Spring</em></strong><br />Spring sits only three weeks away, and the body senses it before the landscape does. Even as flakes continue to fall, there&rsquo;s a faint shift&mdash;an undercurrent of anticipation, a quiet awareness that the season is preparing to turn. Winter lingers, but something in the air has already begun to loosen.<br /><br /><br /><strong><em>Christmas Reflections and Soap&#8209;Opera Drama</em></strong><br />This morning carried me unexpectedly back to Christmas&mdash;not the one just passed, but Christmas 1981, unfolding in a rerun of <em>The Edge of Night</em> I found on YouTube. Snow fell outside my Peekskill window while holiday chaos played out on the screen. The show, true to its melodramatic pulse, offered crime amid the tinsel: Detective Damien Tyler stabbed and left for dead, and Sky Whitney&mdash;jealous, wounded, and volatile&mdash;slapping Raven after learning she had visited Tyler in the hospital, a man he considered an enemy.<br /><br />The contrast was strangely comforting: winter outside, winter on the screen; a town waiting for spring, and a soap opera frozen in its own perpetual storm of passion and peril.<br />&#8203;</div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;"><font size="7">The Edge of Night</font></h2>  <div class="wsite-video"><div title="Video: whatsapp_video_2026-03-01_at_9.49.06_am_239.mp4" class="wsite-video-wrapper wsite-video-height-170 wsite-video-align-center"> 					<div id="wsite-video-container-342856103351816436" class="wsite-video-container" style="margin: 10px 0 10px 0;"> 						<iframe allowtransparency="true" allowfullscreen="true" frameborder="0" scrolling="no" id="video-iframe-342856103351816436" 							src="about:blank"> 						</iframe> 						 						<style> 							#wsite-video-container-342856103351816436{ 								background: url(//www.weebly.com/uploads/b/29872307-664627316802893739/whatsapp_video_2026-03-01_at_9.49.06_am_239.jpg); 							}  							#video-iframe-342856103351816436{ 								background: url(//cdn2.editmysite.com/images/util/videojs/play-icon.png?1772133923); 							}  							#wsite-video-container-342856103351816436, #video-iframe-342856103351816436{ 								background-repeat: no-repeat; 								background-position:center; 							}  							@media only screen and (-webkit-min-device-pixel-ratio: 2), 								only screen and (        min-device-pixel-ratio: 2), 								only screen and (                min-resolution: 192dpi), 								only screen and (                min-resolution: 2dppx) { 									#video-iframe-342856103351816436{ 										background: url(//cdn2.editmysite.com/images/util/videojs/@2x/play-icon.png?1772133923); 										background-repeat: no-repeat; 										background-position:center; 										background-size: 70px 70px; 									} 							} 						</style> 					</div> 				</div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["The Night the Room Thinned and Something Opened"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/the-night-the-room-thinned-and-something-opened]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/the-night-the-room-thinned-and-something-opened#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Thu, 26 Feb 2026 12:43:15 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/the-night-the-room-thinned-and-something-opened</guid><description><![CDATA[    A Coney Island Mermaid Pils — whatever Pils means — just a light, refreshing beer at Whiskey River after the gym, the kind that goes down easy when the night is winding itself toward quiet.   Night Walks ThresholdsIf beer were the only alcohol in the world, I wouldn&rsquo;t drink much at all. Two Coney Island Mermaids went down easy&mdash;bright, crisp, unexpectedly good&mdash;but somewhere in the middle of the third, gifted by the bartender as a parting gesture, my body refused. Full. B [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/whatsapp-image-2026-02-26-at-7-52-30-am_orig.jpeg' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/whatsapp-image-2026-02-26-at-7-52-30-am_orig.jpeg" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">A Coney Island Mermaid Pils &mdash; whatever Pils means &mdash; just a light, refreshing beer at Whiskey River after the gym, the kind that goes down easy when the night is winding itself toward quiet.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><strong><em>Night Walks Thresholds</em></strong><br />If beer were the only alcohol in the world, I wouldn&rsquo;t drink much at all. Two Coney Island Mermaids went down easy&mdash;bright, crisp, unexpectedly good&mdash;but somewhere in the middle of the third, gifted by the bartender as a parting gesture, my body refused. Full. Bloated. Done. The bar was closing anyway, and only a handful of us remained.<br /><br />In that thinning, something shifted. A small fellowship formed&mdash;unlikely, unplanned, but unmistakably real.&nbsp;We discovered that we all talk to ourselves, and not in the first person but <strong>in the second</strong>.<br /><br />&ldquo;You need to calm down.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;You&rsquo;re doing fine.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;You&rsquo;re going to regret that tomorrow.&rdquo;<br /><br />Once spoken aloud, it became a shared quirk, a mirror held up to each of us. Instead of embarrassment, it sparked recognition&mdash;an odd, intimate bond.<br /><br />Then something whisked through the door. A draft, maybe. Or maybe not. It carried the sensation of someone entering&mdash;a presence, a shadow, a memory brushing past. It made me wonder about Whiskey River&rsquo;s past. What stories lived in these walls when Peekskill was still a village in the Town of Cortlandt, long before it became a city with its own pulse?<br /><br />Walking home, Peekskill was falling asleep. P&amp;K dark. Birdsall dark. Only a few figures drifting out of Gourmet Deli, the last flicker of activity on that side of town.<br /><br />Somewhere in that quiet, something in me loosened. The old turmoil with Joaquin&mdash;the ups, the downs, the messiness that once felt so heavy&mdash;no longer clung to me. It wasn&rsquo;t denial; it was release. A soft, unforced clarity.<br /><br />I realized I was over it. Not in bitterness, but in peace. The night had turned a page for me.<br /><br />It felt, unmistakably, like a brand new day.</div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["Between Heaven and Hell"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/between-heaven-and-hell]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/between-heaven-and-hell#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Thu, 26 Feb 2026 04:54:36 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/between-heaven-and-hell</guid><description><![CDATA[       I spent the early part of the day with people I never wanted to be around in the first place &mdash; wounded souls who cling to company, dependency, and drama because it&rsquo;s all they know. I went only to help someone who needed help I couldn&rsquo;t give, and somehow, I still became the villain when I tried to leave. Even after I fed him because he was hungry, drove him to get what he wanted &mdash; cigarettes, nothing more &mdash; he turned on me, angry that I wouldn&rsquo;t stay in  [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/thenightpeekskill_orig.png' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/thenightpeekskill_orig.png" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font size="5"><strong>I spen</strong>t the early part of the day with people I never wanted to be around in the first place &mdash; wounded souls who cling to company, dependency, and drama because it&rsquo;s all they know. I went only to help someone who needed help I couldn&rsquo;t give, and somehow, I still became the villain when I tried to leave. Even after I fed him because he was hungry, drove him to get what he wanted &mdash; cigarettes, nothing more &mdash; he turned on me, angry that I wouldn&rsquo;t stay in that cramped world with him. Their talk was all bitterness, false accusations, and black&#8209;and&#8209;white thinking, a place where truth goes to die.<br /><br />And then, as if the universe wanted to remind me who I really am, I walked into Whiskey River and found my people &mdash; the ones who welcome me with open arms, who tell stories of the past to strangers, who live in color and possibility. Their laughter felt like the crickets I once hated on Decatur Avenue, the ones I eventually grew to love, the chorus that carried me to sleep. Tonight, that sound returned in a different form &mdash; the sound of belonging.<br /><br />Age has taught me this: I know exactly who I don&rsquo;t want in my life, and I know who I want completely. Tonight made the divide unmistakable &mdash; Hell in the people whose world is small, bitter, and built on false accusations, and Heaven in the ones whose minds are open, curious, and unafraid of possibility.<br /><br />Later, when &ldquo;Silent Running: Can You Hear Me&rdquo; began playing on its own &mdash; the first song I heard after the death of the man I loved &mdash; I understood the day had been speaking to me all along.<br /><br />&#8203;I hear you, Paul...</font></div>  <div class="wsite-youtube" style="margin-bottom:10px;margin-top:10px;"><div class="wsite-youtube-wrapper wsite-youtube-size-auto wsite-youtube-align-center"> <div class="wsite-youtube-container">  <iframe src="//www.youtube.com/embed/Ddi2TBnzdPo?wmode=opaque" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe> </div> </div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["After‑Hours Testosterone: A Night at the Anytime Jungle"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/after-hours-testosterone-a-night-at-the-anytime-jungle]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/after-hours-testosterone-a-night-at-the-anytime-jungle#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Wed, 25 Feb 2026 05:08:58 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/after-hours-testosterone-a-night-at-the-anytime-jungle</guid><description><![CDATA[       Some days stack themselves so high you can barely see over them. Writing deadlines, errands, fasting, prayer &mdash; all of it demanding attention at once. Something had to give, and today it was my usual daytime gym session. There simply wasn&rsquo;t a spare hour to squeeze it in. So the gym waited&hellip; and waited&hellip; until I finally walked through the doors at 10:30 p.m., which absolutely qualifies as &ldquo;late night&rdquo; in my world.And what a world it was.The place was pack [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/whatsapp-image-2026-02-24-at-11-40-01-pm_orig.jpeg' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/whatsapp-image-2026-02-24-at-11-40-01-pm_orig.jpeg" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph">Some days stack themselves so high you can barely see over them. Writing deadlines, errands, fasting, prayer &mdash; all of it demanding attention at once. Something had to give, and today it was my usual daytime gym session. There simply wasn&rsquo;t a spare hour to squeeze it in. So the gym waited&hellip; and waited&hellip; until I finally walked through the doors at 10:30 p.m., which absolutely qualifies as &ldquo;late night&rdquo; in my world.<br /><br />And what a world it was.<br /><br />The place was <em>packed</em> &mdash; at least twenty&#8209;five young men, all radiating that unmistakable &ldquo;Bad Bunny&rdquo; swagger. A few women floated among them, including one in a pink outfit so tight I briefly wondered if she had been sewn into it. There were also a few &ldquo;Mary types,&rdquo; though unless your radar is tuned to the right frequency, you might miss them entirely.<br /><br />The energy was electric. People climbed, strutted, flexed, and lifted with such ferocity that their grunts ricocheted off every mirror and pane of glass. With all those reflections multiplying every movement, there was no escaping the spectacle. And I&rsquo;ll admit it &mdash; as I listened to the chorus of grunts, my mind drifted somewhere it probably shouldn&rsquo;t have. <em>Is this how they sound in more intimate settings?</em> The thought made me laugh out loud as I ran my heart out on the treadmill.<br /><br />Then it got even more surreal. One of the Bad Bunny types hopped onto the treadmill right beside me, all swagger and cologne. Meanwhile, Donald Trump flickered silently on the gym&rsquo;s television, completely ignored. No one cared. The real show was the music, the banter, the youthful bravado pulsing through the room.<br /><br />There&rsquo;s no question: testosterone peaks at Anytime Fitness after dark.<br /><br />And now that I&rsquo;ve seen the late&#8209;night version of this place &mdash; the jungle it becomes, the characters it reveals &mdash; I have to admit&hellip; I kind of loved it.</div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["The Unique Character of a Town and the Weather"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/the-unique-character-of-a-town-and-the-weather]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/the-unique-character-of-a-town-and-the-weather#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Sun, 22 Feb 2026 10:17:59 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/the-unique-character-of-a-town-and-the-weather</guid><description><![CDATA[    Towns have their own barometers, their own emotional climate, and sometimes the people are more dramatic than the storm.   Every town has its own emotional weather&mdash;an atmosphere you can feel long before you check a forecast. Peekskill has taught me that. John Steinbeck once wrote in The Pearl:&nbsp;&ldquo;How news travels through a town is a mystery not easily to be solved&hellip; faster than women can call it over the fences.&rdquo;&nbsp;He understood how a place hums with shared awar [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/image8450-1_orig.jpg' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/image8450-1_orig.jpg" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">Towns have their own barometers, their own emotional climate, and sometimes the people are more dramatic than the storm.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph">Every town has its own emotional weather&mdash;an atmosphere you can feel long before you check a forecast. Peekskill has taught me that.<br /><br /> John Steinbeck once wrote in <em>The Pearl</em>:&nbsp;<strong>&ldquo;How news travels through a town is a mystery not easily to be solved&hellip; faster than women can call it over the fences.&rdquo;&nbsp;</strong>He understood how a place hums with shared awareness, how information and feeling ripple through a community like a quiet current.<br /><br />Lately, that current has been buzzing with warnings. If you listen to the news, the entire Northeast&mdash;New York City at its center&mdash;seems to be bracing for catastrophe, with dire predictions of a blizzard barreling in on Sunday. <br /><br />The tone is apocalyptic.<br /><br />But yesterday told a different story.<br /><br />Sunlight broke through. The grass in Pugsley Park appeared for the first time in weeks. A young boy chased a cluster of Canadian Geese off the newly revealed green, laughing as they lifted into the air. It was such a simple, ordinary moment&mdash;yet it cut straight through the drama of the forecasts.<br /><br />And that&rsquo;s the truth of living in a town: the weather on the ground, the mood in the streets, the small human scenes unfolding in real time often tell a more honest story than any headline.<br /><br />Sometimes the town itself is the best forecast.<br /><br /></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["Restless Hours and Thoughts of Age"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/restless-hours-and-thoughts-of-age]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/restless-hours-and-thoughts-of-age#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Fri, 20 Feb 2026 07:10:13 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/restless-hours-and-thoughts-of-age</guid><description><![CDATA[    Johnsonville, SC, as Alicetown, Georgia, in Painted People Story.   It&rsquo;s late again &mdash; well past the bewitching hour &mdash; and like every other night owl wandering around their apartment instead of sleeping, I&rsquo;m still awake, tending to small tasks before finally giving in. Oddly enough, I sleep better from 6 a.m. to 1 p.m. than during the hours the world insists are meant for rest. Seven hours never feels like seven hours anymore. I need more than that these days.I try not [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/johnsonvilledowntown-ghosttown-img-9918-orig_orig.jpg' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/johnsonvilledowntown-ghosttown-img-9918-orig_orig.jpg" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">Johnsonville, SC, as Alicetown, Georgia, in Painted People Story.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font size="5">It&rsquo;s late again &mdash; well past the bewitching hour &mdash; and like every other night owl wandering around their apartment instead of sleeping, I&rsquo;m still awake, tending to small tasks before finally giving in. Oddly enough, I sleep better from 6 a.m. to 1 p.m. than during the hours the world insists are meant for rest. Seven hours never feels like seven hours anymore. I need more than that these days.<br /><br />I try not to dwell too much on age or the strange process of growing older, especially since I never expected to see forty. Yet here I am &mdash; this old body still moving along, while so many people and places exist now only as memory.<br /><br /><strong>Progress on <em>Painted People</em></strong><br />For the first time, I&rsquo;m genuinely satisfied with where <em>Painted People</em> is heading. That&rsquo;s not something I say lightly. In my imagination, I&rsquo;m back in Georgia &mdash; in Johnsonville, the town that shaped me and now serves as the bones of my fictional Alicetown. And I have to admit: I&rsquo;m enjoying the story as it unfolds. It feels alive in a way it hasn&rsquo;t in years.<br /><br />Below is a small sample from the latest work &mdash; a scene I&rsquo;m finally proud to share.<br /><br /><br /><strong>Painted People &mdash; Sample</strong><br />Alicetown, Georgia wasn&rsquo;t the kind of place that let go of its dead. The red clay roads, the leaning pines, the sagging porches &mdash; everything seemed to hold the memory of those who&rsquo;d passed through and those who&rsquo;d passed on. As Travis followed Miss Etha Lee up the steps of her trailer, the air felt thick enough to swallow. The confrontation with Tyrone still clung to him like sweat, but something heavier pressed in now &mdash; a sense that whatever truth he&rsquo;d come seeking was waiting inside, patient and unblinking, ready to strip away whatever illusions he had left.<br /><br />Once inside the warm trailer house, the woman slammed the door and swished ahead of him, studying him up and down, her fingers tapping the snuff&#8209;swollen side of her jaw.<br /><br />&ldquo;Well, ya ain&rsquo; so weak kneed an&rsquo; dat uggy,&rdquo; she nodded, &ldquo;an&rsquo; ya ain&rsquo; necessarily look lak one o&rsquo; thom funny fallas I sees up in At lanta. I thinks ya be righ&rsquo; phine fir a lily skin boy. But chile, ya needs som&rsquo; grits on yar ribs. Don&rsquo;t ya eat out dere in California?&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Yes ma&rsquo;am, I eat all the time.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Den where &rsquo;bouts ya put it?&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;You mean food?&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Yep &mdash; de food ya gotta eat ta live!&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Well, I chew it, swallow it down my thro&mdash;&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Chile! It can&rsquo;t be gawn nowhere. I see I be havin&rsquo; ta fatten ya up &rsquo;fore ya leave dis house. No one &mdash; &rsquo;specially a man &mdash; oughta be dat poh.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;But I&rsquo;m not skinny, ma&rsquo;am.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Ya is poh, chile. Now let me take yar suitcase an&rsquo; ya sat yar sef righ&rsquo; down on dat chair &rsquo;til I gits back an&rsquo; fix us som&rsquo; o&rsquo; momma&rsquo;s good ole stemmin&rsquo; black coffee and den a hearty breakfast.&rdquo;<br /><br />Travis cleared his throat and handed her the suitcase. His lip throbbed. His chest still felt tight from Tyrone&rsquo;s grip &mdash; shame, fear, and something else he didn&rsquo;t want to name.<br /><br />She started out, then swirled back.<br /><br />&ldquo;Yar neck ain&rsquo; botherin&rsquo; ya none now, is it chile?&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;No ma&rsquo;am,&rdquo; he said, touching his mouth. &ldquo;It&rsquo;s my lip. The skin&rsquo;s broken. It stings a little, but I&rsquo;ll be all right.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;I get ya some ice ta keep de swellin&rsquo; down. I guess ya jest shook up afta big ole Ty rone gots hold of ya.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Yes ma&rsquo;am. I expect I was a bit taken back.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Well, dat&rsquo;s over wit now, chile. What&rsquo;s done is done. Ty rone awright. He jest upset. He wuz crazy &rsquo;bout his big brother Clarence. An&rsquo; seein&rsquo; Clarence die de poor way he lef dis earth &mdash; hurt him. But once ya gits ta know my babie boy, ya gots yarsef a sure enuf friend fir life. Ya hear me, chile?&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Yes ma&rsquo;am,&rdquo; he said, clearing his throat again. &ldquo;And I&rsquo;ll hear you even better once you get some ice for my lip and put that coffee on.&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Ya got a mighty fine point dere, chile. I jest can&rsquo;t git gawning lessin&rsquo; I have my strong black coffee. It&rsquo;s kinda like wontin&rsquo; a strong black man &rsquo;round. I&rsquo;m always needin&rsquo; a good one ta hold an&rsquo; squeeze me in his thick arms, but he ain&rsquo; never &rsquo;round when de spell hits me. Now I reckon you know righ&rsquo; well what I&rsquo;m talkin&rsquo; &rsquo;bout, chile?&rdquo;<br /><br />&ldquo;Yes ma&rsquo;am, I expect I do.&rdquo;</font><br /></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["Between the Crock Pot and the Clouds"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/between-the-crock-pot-and-the-clouds]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/between-the-crock-pot-and-the-clouds#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Wed, 18 Feb 2026 15:47:02 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/between-the-crock-pot-and-the-clouds</guid><description><![CDATA[    A day of solitude, drag‑show memory, fasting, fog, and the small lessons that lift us.   Guarding the QuietSome days the urge to write arrives like a tide&mdash;steady, insistent, impossible to ignore. On those days, the smallest interruption feels like a theft. The solution is simple: shut the world out. Silence the phone. Close the door. Let solitude do its work.I&rsquo;ve accepted that I&rsquo;m no longer a &ldquo;phone person.&rdquo; I prefer to be seen on my own terms, not summoned by [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/whatsapp-image-2026-02-18-at-10-33-06-am_orig.jpeg' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/whatsapp-image-2026-02-18-at-10-33-06-am_orig.jpeg" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">A day of solitude, drag&#8209;show memory, fasting, fog, and the small lessons that lift us.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><br /><font size="5"><strong>Guarding the Quiet</strong><br />Some days the urge to write arrives like a tide&mdash;steady, insistent, impossible to ignore. On those days, the smallest interruption feels like a theft. The solution is simple: shut the world out. Silence the phone. Close the door. Let solitude do its work.</font><br /><br /><font size="5">I&rsquo;ve accepted that I&rsquo;m no longer a &ldquo;phone person.&rdquo; I prefer to be seen on my own terms, not summoned by a ringtone or a blinking screen. The idea of being a &ldquo;Zoomie&rdquo;&mdash;someone who thrives on constant calls and video chats&mdash;has never appealed to me. I choose when I&rsquo;m visible.</font><br /><br /><font size="5"><strong>Breaks, But Only the Necessary Ones</strong><br />Even on a writing day, a few breaks are unavoidable. Joaquin is the rare exception&mdash;he knows how to exist in my space without disturbing the current, even if he lingers at my bar a little too long. I let him be.</font><br /><br /><font size="5">The real break comes later, when the fog lifts and the rain gives up. That&rsquo;s when I head to the gym. The air is still cold, but softer than before, and stepping outside resets something in me.<br /></font><br /><font size="5"><strong>Fasting and Preparation</strong><br />Today we&rsquo;re fasting until sunset. Thankfully, everything is already slow&#8209;cooking in the crock pot&mdash;a gift from a generous bartender at Whiskey River. That small act of kindness means I can write without worrying about food. When the fast ends, a warm meal will be waiting.<br />&#8203;</font><br /><font size="5"><strong>A Story That Stays With You</strong><br />I&rsquo;m finishing Amrou Al&#8209;Kadhi&rsquo;s <em>You Made Me a Monster</em>, a story that has had me laughing from start to finish. Al&#8209;Kadhi writes about the moment his mother told him, at fifteen, &ldquo;You&rsquo;re not you, you&rsquo;re me!&rdquo;&mdash;a declaration that shook him to the core.</font><br /><br /><font size="5">Labeled a problem child, he spiraled through blackout weekends and bruised returns home. But drag saved him. Drag gave him glamour, power, and a way to turn fear into self&#8209;expression. It let him reclaim the narrative.</font><br /><br /><font size="5">One line lingers with me:<br /><strong>&ldquo;And even as someone who makes a career out of confident provocation, I yearn for safety and normality too.&rdquo;</strong></font><br /><br /><font size="5">Looking at the old photo on the cover for this blog&mdash;one I took at a drag show in San Francisco&mdash;I&rsquo;m reminded of the electricity that happens when someone steps fully into themselves. The lights, the glitter, the unapologetic presence&mdash;it&rsquo;s the same energy Al&#8209;Kadhi writes about, that moment when performance becomes power. Drag has a way of turning fear inside out, transforming it into something luminous. Even as an observer, I felt that charge, that sense of possibility. It&rsquo;s a reminder that visibility can be both dangerous and divine.</font><br /><br /><font size="5"><strong>Safety, Community, and the Places We Call Home</strong><br />I understand that yearning. I love Peekskill, but it doesn&rsquo;t always feel safe. The gay community here is quiet, often hidden. I&rsquo;ve been verbally attacked by a stranger simply because of my walk. Even on good days, caution is part of the routine.</font><br /><br /><font size="5">New York City is different. There, anonymity is a kind of freedom. People don&rsquo;t care who you are or where you come from. Here, visibility can still be dangerous.</font><br /><br /><font size="5"><strong>A Moment of Peace</strong><br />But then I look up through the fog and see a young eagle gliding toward the river. A small reminder to breathe. To smile. To keep going. These moments&mdash;unexpected, fleeting&mdash;are what anchor me.<br />&#8203;</font><br /><strong><font size="5">Funny how the universe works: a drag queen in San Francisco and a young eagle over the Hudson both teaching the same lesson &mdash; rise anyway.</font></strong></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["Happy Bushisms Day"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/happy-bushisms-day]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/happy-bushisms-day#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Tue, 17 Feb 2026 14:00:18 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/happy-bushisms-day</guid><description><![CDATA[    George W. Bush's quote, "I know the human being and fish can coexist peacefully," was made during a speech in Saginaw, Michigan, on September 29, 2000.   Reflections on Winter, Presidents Day, and the People Who Shaped UsThe Beauty of WinterMother Nature has been generous this year, giving me exactly what I wished for: a snow&#8209;covered hill that has carried me through January and now well into February. This morning, a flutter of black birds&mdash;crows or ravens, I can never quite tell& [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/bush_orig.jpeg' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/bush_orig.jpeg" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">George W. Bush's quote, "I know the human being and fish can coexist peacefully," was made during a speech in Saginaw, Michigan, on September 29, 2000.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font size="5"><em>Reflections on Winter, Presidents Day, and the People Who Shaped Us</em><br /><br /><strong>The Beauty of Winter</strong><br />Mother Nature has been generous this year, giving me exactly what I wished for: a snow&#8209;covered hill that has carried me through January and now well into February. This morning, a flutter of black birds&mdash;crows or ravens, I can never quite tell&mdash;performed their daily dance among the bare treetops and the tallest buildings downtown. It&rsquo;s a small ritual, but one that fills me with joy.<br />&#8203;<br />Snow still blankets everything. Another round fell around 2:00 AM, though by then I had already shut down the world and surrendered to sleep. I used to joke that the coldest winter I ever spent was a summer in San Francisco, but that turned out to be a lie. The coldest winter I ever spent was the winter of 2026 in Peekskill, NY. And strangely, instead of dragging me into defeat or depression, this winter gave me life. It made me embrace the season rather than endure those bleak, snowless winters of brown and gray.<br /><br /><strong>Presidents Day and the Morning&rsquo;s News<br />&#8203;</strong>Today is Presidents Day&mdash;a celebration of all 46 individuals who have served consecutively as U.S. presidents. And in the midst of that reflection came the news that Jesse Jackson has died. He was the one who helped popularize the term <em>African American</em>, a shift that carried cultural weight and dignity.<br /><br />Back in December 1988, he stood before the press and declared that the community preferred the term African American, emphasizing heritage, identity, and continuity. That moment changed the national vocabulary. It&rsquo;s remarkable how a single voice can redirect the language of a country.<br />&#8203;<br /><strong>Remembering Influential Figures</strong><br />We also lost one of my favorite actors&mdash;Robert Duvall. I remember him best as <a href="https://youtu.be/iRmIef02Ajk?si=h4mp0qIIzgFgDvqE" target="_blank">Boo Radley</a> in <em>To Kill a Mockingbird</em>, in the haunting <em>Twilight Zone</em> episode &ldquo;<strong><a href="https://youtu.be/O33m4z7u2dA?si=yt1EH9NrHgYDpiPj" target="_blank">Miniature</a></strong>,&rdquo; and<strong>&nbsp;<a href="https://youtu.be/SYgXDRdkJRc?si=fgPoLNDWfp9qV1AL" target="_blank">later in <em>Network</em></a></strong>, where he delivered yet another unforgettable performance. He was one of those actors who didn&rsquo;t just play roles&mdash;he inhabited them.<br /><br /><strong>My Thoughts on Presidents</strong><br />Now, when it comes to presidents, my friends may think I&rsquo;m out of my mind, but I always had a soft spot for <strong><a href="https://youtu.be/JhmdEq3JhoY?si=9KD_1Ah6Lw5bhPGX" target="_blank">George W. Bush</a></strong>. He was far from perfect, but he made me laugh&mdash;especially with those famous Bushisms. There was something endearing about the way his tongue would twist itself into knots. It reminded me of myself whenever I have to speak publicly. Words betray me just as easily.</font><br /><br /></div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">The Best of Bushisms</h2>  <div class="wsite-youtube" style="margin-bottom:10px;margin-top:10px;"><div class="wsite-youtube-wrapper wsite-youtube-size-auto wsite-youtube-align-center"> <div class="wsite-youtube-container">  <iframe src="//www.youtube.com/embed/JhmdEq3JhoY?wmode=opaque" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe> </div> </div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA["Monday Mornings in Retirement"]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/monday-mornings-in-retirement]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/monday-mornings-in-retirement#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Mon, 16 Feb 2026 14:33:41 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.charles-pearson.com/charles-journal/monday-mornings-in-retirement</guid><description><![CDATA[    Maybe that’s the secret to Mondays in retirement: letting the past of an old photo surprise you just enough to pull you into the day.   Adjusting to a New Rhythm&#8203;Even after reminding myself&mdash;sometimes out loud&mdash;that I am retired and no longer expected to show up in the Financial District by 9 a.m., Mondays still arrive with their old weight. The body remembers what the mind tries to forget. I wake up groggy, disoriented, tempted to stay under the covers as if the commute st [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none " style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"> <a href='https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/nycmay2018sexyboyfilecpearsonc-img-1978_orig.png' rel='lightbox' onclick='if (!lightboxLoaded) return false'> <img src="https://www.charles-pearson.com/uploads/2/9/8/7/29872307/nycmay2018sexyboyfilecpearsonc-img-1978_orig.png" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%" /> </a> <div style="display:block;font-size:90%">Maybe that&rsquo;s the secret to Mondays in retirement: letting the past of an old photo surprise you just enough to pull you into the day.</div> </div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font size="5"><strong>Adjusting to a New Rhythm</strong><br />&#8203;Even after reminding myself&mdash;sometimes out loud&mdash;that I am retired and no longer expected to show up in the Financial District by 9 a.m., Mondays still arrive with their old weight. The body remembers what the mind tries to forget. I wake up groggy, disoriented, tempted to stay under the covers as if the commute still waits for me somewhere out there. It&rsquo;s funny how deeply routine burrows into us, how long it lingers even after the job is gone.<br /><br /><strong>An Unexpected Lift<br /></strong>This morning, in that half-awake haze, I opened my laptop with reluctance, hoping to find the file I needed. Instead, I stumbled onto something else&mdash;an old photograph buried deep in my archives. A saxophone player I met in the West Village nearly twenty years ago.<br /><br />The moment I saw it, something shifted. New York stopped feeling like a distant craving or a place I used to dream about. That photo reminded me of the exact moment I realized I wanted to belong to this city, to its pulse, its improvisations, its late-night corners where strangers become part of your story.<br /><br />The memories came rushing back&mdash;bright, warm, unashamedly joyful. And just like that, the heaviness of the morning loosened its grip. Nostalgia can be a kind of medicine when it arrives at the right time.<br /></font><br /></div>]]></content:encoded></item></channel></rss>