Constant Craving

A not so quiet night out in New York...

Frankly, drinking offers no benefits. To maintain productivity in writing the next day, one must work harder after consuming alcohol, particularly when attention to detail and exploration are required, as in my case.

Although I appreciate my new acquaintances, I need to establish stricter boundaries and remove the substances they bring into my life that neither provide pleasure nor allow me to feel secure in my environment when influenced by them.

The men in this town exhibit a mix of passive-aggression and charm, yet they seem melancholic; their true intentions elude me. While I believe I understand their pursuits, I must not to engage in their relentless desires any longer or delve into their underlying issues.

Now I understand what women, or "versatile bottoms" go through with horny men. You are the object that fulfills their every need. It makes me feel sad and sick. At the end of it all, you're left feeling empty and almost dirty inside while he stands up and struts away like a gamecock. because he thinks he's conquered you.

I am, at last, maturing, and I think I like that...